I became 1 in 4
Have you ever felt the life drain from your body but heart still beating? Have you ever screamed so loud in desperation that the whole world could have heard you? Have you ever stopped breathing to make the pain stop for just a moment? Maybe, if I just wake up, this nightmare will be gone?.... I have. I’ve asked myself every question under the sun since the day I lost my baby. Before you tell me, I have heard it all so please spare me “Now wasn’t the time.” or “At least you weren’t further along.” or even “You have enough kids as is.” I came into this new year miscarrying my child. No I don’t want sympathy, I want my baby. I want to be watching my belly grow, the late night cravings, the kicking match at 3AM, the exhaustion, the back pain. On December 29th my excitement began crashing around me. I began miscarrying. I knew, I tried so hard to try and be positive but I knew. On December 31st I rolled out of bed at 5AM and something felt very wrong. Afte...