Holiday hurt

 


 This season came painful this year. I have cried more this season than I have in a long time. 2020 hit especially hard. This year hurt more than anything I’ve known. This season i have constantly internally screamed while laughing, internally cried while smiling and buried myself in conversation when all I wanted was to be alone especially recently. This season I felt the what if’s harder than normal and the “I should be” worse than ever. If youve ever loss anyone than you would know exactly where I’m coming from.

  To help, I’ve sat and talked to them when I missed them more that moment. So with the holiday season now here and everyone writing letters so their loved ones, here is mine to those who didn’t get to see this season with us.

  ‘Hey you.

I miss you. Is it beautiful where you are? I know you know I think of you all the time. I constantly find myself wondering where you would be or what you would be doing. I ask myself all the time what it would be like with you here during this holiday season. I know I still cry when I miss you but some pains just don’t go away. When you left, pain took on a whole new meaning. I know you don’t want me to cry, I’m getting better but I will never forget you. Only God knows how much I love you. There’s not one day that goes by that I don’t miss you. I know you’re in good hands until I see you again. I love you to heaven and back.

Until we meet again’

  They say that pain of loss never goes away, one just learns to live with it and keep moving. So to anyone who has lost, I pray for your strength. Strength to keep moving forwards especially through the season. May one day, we see them again❤️

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