A letter to my children

My sweet loves,
  Each one of you were placed in my life at a precise moment. Each of you have taught me something different. All of you have taught me that love is the most important thing in our lives.
  The truth is, I love you all differently but equally. You have taught me life lessons that I didn't know I needed. You have given me the greatest gift in your own way. Watching you grow is the most exciting, scary, irritating, amazing, heartbreaking, joyous thing in life.
  As your mommy/bonus mom I am not ready for you to grow. I look at you and see that little one with the thirst to learn. I do, however, want to see you grow. I want to see the amazing person that I know you'll be. I am scared because I know that life is hard and cruel at times. There will be your your first bad grade, first heartbreak, first fight, first ended friendship, but there will also be your good report card, your first love, your first real friends, your first car. You see, as your mommy/bonus mom I will always be here with you through it all.
   My sweet babies, I might embarrass you at times and maybe seem overbearing other times but please know I only want the best for you in life. I want to give you everything I never had. My goal in life is to make sure you are raised right. Your daddy and I might not always be able to give you what you want but I can promise that you will always have what you need. Please know that no matter what, I do everything for you. Remember my loves, I am always proud of you and I always love you. You will forever and always be my babies.
    Love, your mommy/bonus mom

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