If only...

  If only. If only I knew then what I know now. Sound familiar? I bet it does. I bet that you have said it at least once or twice in your lifetime. Let's talk about that phrase for a minute.
  When you look at a picture and you think " if only I knew then what I know now" what would you have done different? If that phrase were true, what would you have done different in your life at that time? I've thought about that phrase a lot lately. Do you know what? I'm glad I didn't know. I've had parts of my life that I wish I could rewrite or redo. There's parts of my life that I wish I could forget. Let's face the facts though, we cant but how much did you learn from that situation? I mean really. I learned a lot from those times in life and I can almost bet you did too.
  You see, we turn to that phrase because we might have not liked the situation, we might have not liked what we were going through at the time, we might have not wanted to remember that but a strong lesson came out of that. Sometimes life has its cruel way of teaching us lessons and at times it can be a hard pill to swallow.
  So the reality of it is, I'm glad I didn't know. I struggled then but I love where I am right now. If I would have known then what I know now I might have not made the same decisions, and I might not be where I am today. Truth is, I love where I am today. So no more "what ifs" or "if onlys" because there's no point in dwelling on those things. Enjoy life and it's lessons even if they aren't easy. You come out a smarter and stronger person in the end.

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